Nervous. Scared?

It's always scary to take risks... everyone knows that right? I guess it's getting late and the whole 'deep' side of me is coming out, but I'm starting to think following through those risks you take are even scarier.

Last year, I had my life all set up for myself... I had it all planned out. It goes something like this:

1. Finish a Bachelor of Science in Physics at the University of Winnipeg
2. Spend two years earning a Bachelor of Engineering at the University of Minnesota IT
3. Take two years to establish my career and get settled
4. Get married
5. Have two sets of twins and one set of triplets..yeaa sure =P
6. Then live 'life' as they say (ride off into the sunset?)

Then just before I started off on checking 1 off my list, I picked up a Canon Rebel t2i and before I knew it things weren't so clear anymore...

A year later, photography has become such a giant part of my life, if not, IS my life.

I thought and thought about it and I though why not? Why not try photography as a career; give it a year and see what happens. Though, the more I dive into every single aspect of photography the more and more it feels right. Maybe this is what I'm suppose to do? Maybe this is God's plan for my life? 

But I'm Scared... Nervous... Anxious. 

I don't know if I can meet my expectations and standards I have for myself. Those who know me know that I'm a perfectionist, and that I only ever strive for excellence in whatever I do.

Right now, I just cant help the feeling that if I don't get there then I made the wrong decision. =/... I guess we'll see how it goes. 

3:00 AM. Work time.

Start of Something?

It's 2 am right now, just an hour and 15 minutes left before I start work (yes I work early mornings) and I just can't seem to fall asleep. So I've thought about starting a blog for sometime now, actually for a REALLY long time now; what better time than now.


Just a disclaimer: I'm not much of a writer. I successfully avoided writing a paper in university for three years (I'm a science student) until I finally had to write three for my last class so I apologize for my grammar, run on sentences, punctuations, and slang thrown in here and there.


So here we go...